I am starting to feel normal again instead of all out of sorts and useless. 3 months at home, only working 1 day a week on the weekend, was NOT good for my soul. I just don't like not being busy and have no ambition to do housework and that kind of stuff while at home. I LOVE working! And even though my work is taking care of children it is not the same as staying at my home all day taking care of my kids. When I am at work there are expectations and things I need/want to do. At work I actually WANT to sit on the floor to read books and play blocks. But not at home. At home I am a useless blob, there is just no other way to say it. I sit and do nothing for hours on end and after about 2 months of that I was really not feeling myself anymore. Definetely not the me I project to potential families I want to work for!
I went back to work 2 weeks ago but only ended up working one day because of the 2 feet of snow we got that next day. I was able to work 2 days last week, plus a job Saturday morning/afternoon and another one Saturday night (today). I will also be working Sunday all day. It feels so great to finally be doing something again. I have a purpose and am being usefull and it has gone a long way toward making me feel happier and more like myself. This next week I will be back on my normal schedule of 3 days during the week, usually, and 1 day each weekend.
I might actually have the time and ambition to get the rest of out October pics and happenings up here this next Wednesday or Friday. But for now it's off to work I go!! I will be taking care of a 3 month old for nearly 6 hours tonight, I am so excited!