That's how it feels to me. Wednesday I made a mistake. I was not trying to cause trouble or drama. I saw someone at a neighbor's house who I knew shouldn't be there and because I knew the homeowner would want to know about it I mentioned it to her. She did some checking into it and we learned it was not who I thought it was. The wrongly accused's husband is VERY upset with me, and for good reason. I know I made a mistake and I'm sorry.
I HATE confrontation and avoid it at all costs. I'm that person who doesn't say much, just listens. I'm a great listener and unless I know it will be well received I keep my opinions to myself. It's the best way to avoid confrontation and drama.
After realizing my mistake I knew I needed to apologize and make it right with the husband. Thursday afternoon I swallowed my pride and walked over to his house, children in tow, to make my apologies. The wife opens the door and tells me he ran upstairs and doesn't want to talk to me. I told her I came to apologize. She in turn asked where her apology was. WHAT?! I really don't believe I owe her any apology and I did not go to talk to her. I admit it got ugly from there. I may be mild tempered and quiet, but I get really defensive, really fast. She asked what my problem was and I told her, flat out. It wasn't pretty. I cussed. In front of my children.
I don't swear very often. And NEVER in front of my kids. I feel bad for speaking to her how I did.
Without going into details I'll just say I have ZERO respect for this person. The decisions she has made the last few months astound me and, honestly, hurt me inside. I am head over heels in love with her son, he is 1. I wouldn't be who I am if I could stand back and watch a child get tossed around in drama and have it NOT break my heart.
I tried several times to walk away. She kept getting in my face and not allowing me to talk. As we walked away Noelle turned to me and asked, "Mommy, why is she being so mean to you?" Even a 3 year old knew her behavior was wrong. I told her this person was not very happy so she is mean to other people.
I still feel very bad about the situation, I really do want to make it right.
I will try again today.
One last time.
I will try to watch my words and not lose my temper if confronted by her again.
I WILL swallow my pride and be a better person.
And now, I DO owe her an apology.
Friday, May 7, 2010
Since I will be working all weekend, including Sunday, I let Adam give me everything he made me at school for Mothers Day already. He painted a pot and planted a pretty flower in it at KE. At Kindergarten he put together a "Mom's Survival Kit" and made a pinch bowl. I feel so blessed to have such a great little boy in my life!!
Thank you Adam, I LOVE YOU!!
After the not-so-great Ballet class Noelle
participated attended in March I decided she needed a class that would allow me to be with her. I think she is too old for a Mommy and me class, but was able to find an art class at our rec that is for 3-5 year olds and their chosen adult. Noelle craves one-on-one attention so it is perfect for her to have 45 minutes of my time all to herself and away from home. The class has been lots of fun!! The first week I traced her body on a piece of paper and she colored and drew in all the details while we talked about what we have as parts of our body. She is an amazing artist, especially for a 3 year old, and has an eye for detail that no 3 year old should have yet.
The second week we used clay to make a tic-tac-toe board and 10 tokens, 5 each of 2 separate designs. Noelle loved working with the clay and getting her hands all dirty. The teacher also let us use a rolling machine that flattened the board piece for us, great fun!
The third week, this week, we painted the tokens and board. The teacher is great, she gave us only two colors at a time that would mix to make a third color (and still look pretty!). Noelle chose a seashell and a swirly as her tokens so I made the board look like a pebbled walkway to go for a seashore theme. I think it turned out really well and it was so much fun to make!
I have subscribed to the Crayola monthly newsletter for nearly 10 years now.(!!) They have great ideas for crafts and always feature that month's holidays. It is also my go-to site to print coloring pages for themes I do at work (Easter, Spring, winter, animals, etc...).The newsletter also features products by Crayola. The last newsletter featured Dry-Erase Crayons!! I hadn't heard of them before and was very excited because both my kids love to use dry-erase boards, but we (J and I) HATE the smell and stains on clothing caused by the traditional markers. I went to Wal-mart right away and got some. It even came with a cleaning mitt.
The kids were so excited for a new way to color and draw!
Adam drew a rocket ship.
Noelle is into fully coloring hers in with circles mostly. I actually have to use a wet paper towel to clean her board since she pushes so hard when she draws. LOL
(disclaimer-I have no clue what was up with either of the kid's hair this day!! I will admit to putting the yellow shirt with the pink outfit though.)